BECAUSE AMY SAID SO

Sunday, January 24, 2010 ; 8:49 PM

Decided to Declare and Dedicate

I have decided and now I'm officially declaring Sunday as my reflection day (this also means I'll definitely update my blog every end of the week !). The one day dedicated to look back what I've done for the entire week , take into account mistakes that I've committed and make sure a mental note is registered in my head so that I will not make them again .

But for this Sunday it'll be postponed to sometime later in the week because ...

ONE : I woke up at 4 freaking PM today because I didn't get home till 4 freaking AM in the morning . Was partying over at St James after a whole day of school from 9.30am to 5pm .

TWO : Since I woke up , I've been busy switching my blog layout's photos from Photobucket to Imageshack because somehow they aren't appearing on my Mozilla Firefox . I'm planning on committing more time and effort on my blog so things can't be looking plain . No no no .

THREE : Then I've also spent quite some time editing a new blog header photo so I'm rather tired now and ...

FOUR : Lastly , I need to start getting ready because Jon and company are coming to pick me up soon . We'll be heading down to Crystal Jade for Seng Hoe's 20th birthday buffet celebration . Oh my God , all-you-can-eat Xiao Long Baos ! Life is good .

A side note , me and the rest of the group have been celebrating his birthday for the past 3 days . From karaoke , to Swissotel , to St James Powerhouse and later on Crystal Jade ! That boy sure knows how to celebrate uh .

Anyway , I really really gotta go now . Will try to blog again later :)

Photos taken for Vogue Indulge a long time ago .

Photo credits : Kai Zhi

Monday, January 11, 2010 ; 3:34 AM

Chevonne's 21st

Time flies . But you wouldn't feel it till you open your wallet , I mean heart for joyous occasions like a loved one's birthday . And that's what happened , my dear girl Chevonne celebrated her 21st birthday today .

Though we may not be your typical meet and talk every other day kind of girlfriends but trust me when I say we've been through a lot . And it's a great feeling to be standing by her after all these years to blow out her birthday candles and watch her enter adulthood .

But before the nice tame party with the cake and without the brutality of forced alcohol drinking , what's a birthday without clubbing and booze to countdown to ? And so , once again , we were all dressed up for St James Powerhouse .

Bing Hong , Chevonne and Yi Min .

Chevonne kissing her present from BH .

A somewhat unwilling kiss from Min to Chev .

And a sweet one from me to Chev .

With my dearest birthday girl .

Yours Truly , Birthday Babe and Min .

Me and Min .

And Kai Liang .

And Wei Dong .

And Seng Hoe .

Wei Dong and Darren .

Kai Liang and a pretty scary Leonard .

Darren with the birthday babe .

Random casual shots .

Group shot . Min , me , Chev , Wei Dong , Kai Liang & Darren .

After the throwing up and minor hangover (I'm referring to the birthday girl , not me) , it was time for Chevonne's official birthday celebration held at Coasta Sands chalet . Dress code , casual and comfortable .

Her very delicious birthday cake .

A very happy Chevonne .

Birthday babe and her Scott Surprise .

BB and her family .

The greatest people you'll ever meet .

BB and friends .

For the first time in a long time , me without make-up .

And Min .

Min , Chevonne , Celine and myself .

Happy birthday Chevonne . I love you . Always have and always will .

Friday, January 8, 2010 ; 3:01 AM

Goodbye and Goodnight

In life , more often than not , we find ourselves needing to say goodbye whether we like it or not . Even if it's for the greater good , it still hurts no matter how times we do it . And you would think after doing it countless times , you would be able to perfect it and maybe have the quick remedy to the sting you are feeling in your heart .

The bad and good part is that we'll never forget what we have given up . We owe no one but ourselves to keep moving forward and learn how to let go .

Sometimes when a chapter in our lives closes , we find ourselves lost and buried under a million questions . That is one of the many difficulties most of us face when trying to start afresh . After 19 years of living , the one question I find myself asking the most after an end is , "What do I do now ?" and my great mind would then naturally link it to the next question like , "What do I want in life ?" . So on and so forth , before I know it , I've spent another sleepless night in bed on a failed attempt of trying to figure out the answers to these questions .

But this time , for the sweet sake of my complexion and dark circles , I asked myself what I shouldn't do . I shouldn't live my life always afraid of the next goodbye , because chances are , they will always be coming .

To me , the hardest part is getting in touch back with the world . Or the cyber world I should say . In my opinion , since the take over of Facebook , the cyber world is harsher than the real world itself . I mean Singapore may be small , but what are the chances of bumping into someone who would be so insensitively up in your face asking about your break-up ? With all the advanced technology invented today , you can't hide very much away from all the 5W1H . Though at the end of the day , you can choose not to answer those dumb headed unmindful idiots (apologies would be given to them when you have moved on) , but can you avoid not answering yourself ?

Breaking up bears similarity to having someone close to you died . The sympathy part where people send their condolences . I mean what do you have to be sorry about ?! I'm sorry I'm not feeling sorry for myself and that you are . I mean as Greg Behrendt says , it's a break up because it's broken . So why spend time in an emotional downturn spiral when you can use it an as opportunity and turning point to reevaluate , rebuild , and possibly redecorate ?

Confession : I spent the next four days (including the day itself) after my break up drinking . Well , I can be excused for two days because they were new year's eve and new year's day . Point is on the fifth day , when I walked into my room , it smelt like something died . To say that I'm not been a very tidy person , on any normal day , is an understatement . But trust me , what I saw (and smelt) that day was bad enough to shake me out of whatever state I was in . So on the fifth day , the only thing I had close to alcohol was the red wine mask I had on my face to help rejuvenate my skin for the first day of school tomorrow .

And yes , I did clean up my room after that if you really must know . Okay not entirely , but I managed to clean up to the extent where there's room on the floor to walk on . Give me some credit , my room's really tiny and I have too much stuff to cramp them all in . I'm still trying to figure what to toss and take .

Anyway , I guess as much as I miss having Ray around in my life , I have found myself saying goodbye . Whether I liked it or not .

Tuesday, January 5, 2010 ; 9:12 PM

Hello 2010 ! (I know I'm a lil late)

Another year , another January , another school semester , another ... You get my point .

I had plans to close down this blog and start a brand new one . There's just this thing about having new things in the new year and I'm one of the many people who suffer from it . But then again , to deny one's past is to deny one self , so the blog stays .

So anyway , because of my break-up with Ray on the 30th of January , I brought the new year in as a single girl . Some called it depressing because I didn't have a special someone to share a kiss at the stroke of midnight with , some called it awesome because what better day to start things new than new year's day .

Well I call it , another break-up .

I'll go into more details in another post . Today , I'm just here to wish everyone a happy new year (YES I KNOW I'M A LIL LATE) , and list down my new year resolutions .

I was actually contemplating as to whether to come up with them this year , reasons due to my recent break-up , realising NY resolutions are rather dumb , lack of time , not following obediently to them hence making them a total waste of time , etc .

But what the hell . I do find a little joy and meager motivation in life after penning them now .

Resolutions for 2010

1. To priortise my life right .
As much as I want to deny it , it's true . I spent almost the whole of last year self-destructing my life with the excessive partying , overworking , cramping in school work , having a similar sleep cycle as an owl , etc . I totally ignored my health , barely spent any time with my family (except for the sunday lunches with my dad) , pushed away the friends I should have held close . So this year , it's all about school , family and myself . It should be easy now that I've stopped working events on weekdays and without a boyfriend .

2. To not take cab to school so often .
The cab fare to school in the morning costs $25 . Twice a week would make it $50 , four times $100 . I would type out my entire time table just so you could do the math but I wouldn't want to shock you with the numericals that scared probably 3 years of my life away . I'm trying and hoping to come up with an idea to help me wake up in the morning . My latest facebook status is actually a S.O.S but so far the suggestions aren't really practical . But nevermind , I'll figure something one out soon .

3. To be on time .
I'm surprised I didn't include this in my resolutions for 2009 . Maybe I was too ashamed , or maybe I didn't realise . Whatever it is , I have had this problem for longer than I can remember . I have this thing with time management . We just don't get along . But that's about to change , I'm gonna make it work and hopefully , I'll never be late again . (Okay , I'm getting ahead of myself)

4. To use beauty products and not leave them lying around .
I have this habit . Bad habit to be exact . I tend to buy beauty products to display them on my dressing table and shelves . It makes me happy seeing that I own them and compliment my dressing table and shelves really well . But I never really get around to using them . Maybe for the first couple of days and then it's forgotten till they have expired and my money has gone to waste . Not that I put most of it into good use . ANYWAY , I'm gonna somehow instill discipline into my system to use every single product till its last drop or mask .

5. To not apply so much make-up .
On a daily basis , I use a lot of make-up . From foundation , to loose powder , to eyeshadow , to fake eyelashes , to it doesn't matter because I'm gonna stop . Thanks to ... More on that next time .

I would love (actually not really) to go on and talk about my flaws of mine that need amendments but I've gotta go . So as usual , signing off with a photo of myself . Till next time ! ;)

- Photo was taken while I was having my make-up done before a bridal shoot . Will post photos from it when I receive them !

Sunday, November 22, 2009 ; 11:28 PM

Put Your Hands Up In The Air

I never really understood the purpose of clubbing . Besides the occasional celebrations , launch parties , cool events and heartbreaks , why do one club ? Maybe because it's one of the few night activities Singapore has to offer .

Sharon and I at Rebel for JJ Lin's Devilock Party .

And Haru-san .

The man himself , JJ Lin .

The bunnies working at the event with JJ Lin .

With Eva .

And Sabrina .

And Tingyi . Plus half of Jennifer at the back .

Me and Danielle with bunny ears .

Sharon , Ting Yi , Eva and I after the party .

But I mean think about it , what is so appealing ? Is it squeezing through the horrible crowd which seems to make going from one end of the club to another take 10 years of your life ? Or the foul smell of vomit along the sides of the road outside the club ? Or could it be the insanely long queue of bathroom line that sometimes causes people to pee in their pants while waiting ?

Min , Chevonne and I at Powerhouse . Normal clubbing night .

Same night , me and Jon . After clubbing .

Seng Hoe and I . And Chevonne squeezing in the middle .

Sam and she-who-does-not-wanna-be-named-because-she-is-barefooted .

I watch girls put on their killer heels and body hugging dresses , after slapping on thick make-up and styling their hair . Then hear them whine the next day about how awful their hangovers are , how bad their complexion have become , how tired their feet are , blah blah blah so on and so forth . I used to be one of them . Okay , not true , I'm still one of them . Only less hangovers and my complexion has been dehydrated since I started having late nights when I was 15 so I've grew tired complaining for the past 3 years .

Heavy make-up applied on my face for Oosh Party .

Together with Dawn at the same party .

And Lurvies .
The 3 of us . Picture taken by William Chua .

Perhaps clubbing is the one time a guy could boost his ego by showing off dance moves to impress the ladies . Or he could flaunt his "wealth" by treating the ladies of his choice glasses of lychee martinis and a few shots of apple shooters . Also , he could try a couple of pick-up lines he learnt from his buddies during the week and see if he could score some numbers to haolian to the same bunch of buddies . I mean the lights are so dim in a club that everyone that patronise that night seem to be blessed with good looks .

Me , Min and half of Seng Hoe at the back . Normal clubbing night at PH .

A full Seng Hoe and I .
With Wei Dong .

And Chevonne kay siao wanna be in the photo .

Me , Min and Chevonne .

Me , Chevonne , Wendy and Min .

With Wei Yi , Seng Hoe , Min , Chevonne and Jon .

No idea what the hell I was doing to Min .

No idea what the hell Chevonne was doing to me .

Chevonne and Min carrying me .

Chevonne and I .

Kissing .

Girls would usually seem to have the advantage . All the free booze , the attention , the flirting . Damn , it sure makes them feel like a princess . Actually more like Paris Hilton . Then comes the grinding , the making out and then the close to having sex on the dancefloor . I mean nothing is free in this world . But of course , no girl would admit she's a slut . The next day , she would usually claim that she was under the influence of alcohol when teased by her friends . (I'm not saying it's untrue . Because I kinda have a few personal stories of this myself .) The next morning , girls would lie on their beds trying to recall the horrid details of last night and then cover their faces with their pillows in embarassment when they do . Oh how they wish they had disciplined themselves not to take the last tequila pop or whatever drink they last drank .

Lurvies and I at Supper Club .

Same night . Sabrina , Me and Lurives .

Amanda , Lurvies , Sabrina and I .

Amanda and I .

Saw Jun Ying there .

But I guess the funnest part is actually the time you spent with whoever who went down the club with . There's also the photos taken while everyone was half sober and then you'll laugh about it over the next meet-up . And the sharing of the stories about the cute guy in leather jacket looking oh-so-cool in the smoking area ;)

I'm gonna end off here now . Gonna go put on a mask to see if I can salvage my poor complexion .

PS : I'm having trouble trying to upload the photos taken yesterday by my lousy phone camera . So Miss Lurvies Chia , be patient okay !