BECAUSE AMY SAID SO

Thursday, November 5, 2009 ; 6:49 AM

Quiet Side Of The Room

This place looks a little dead . So I though I'll drop by this morning to do this freaking short post .

How short ?

This short .

Be back later :)

Thursday, October 22, 2009 ; 1:48 AM

Dancing Is My Remedy

Everyone around me is pretty much kept occupied with whatever they're doing . Everyone's busy , everyone including me .

I just received a text and a call from Wei Yi , telling me how awesome Powerhouse is right now (I find it damn mean lor) . And it got me thinking about my life . How much it has changed since school started , what has changed so far , etc . Basically , changes .

Because I'm not sure what's going on in my life , I'm not sure what to answer when someone asks me how I am . The one thing I know is that I'm tired . Physically , mentally , tired . Exhausted to be exact . And it's showing on my face . No amount of make-up can conceal that , which is not a good thing .

I wanna do well in my studies , I wanna continue working at events , I wanna continue partying on ladies' night (or any night for that matter) , I wanna hang out with my friends at late night suppers where we share our problems and dish juicy gossips and confess our secrets . I wanna do that . I wanna do all of that . In one simple sentence - I want it all .

But is it really possible ? Can it happen ?

I believe something's gotta give . And right now , without having it all , I'm unwillingly giving away my sleep and good complexion . I keep wondering if what the fuck I'm doing . With barely enough time to rest , I seem to find extra minutes to screw up various areas of a perfectly fine life . My life .

I'll figure something out soon . I have to .

Tuesday, October 20, 2009 ; 4:47 PM

Poisoning My Emotions

There are some things in life that you get to choose , and there some that you don't . You've got to live with it . But while we may not be able to control all that happens to us , we can control what happens inside us . So at the end of the day , you get to decide how you would handle the situation . You pick your choice of emotions .

More often than not , you'll find the ugly truth staring at you right in the face . And no matter how you try to deny it or deceive yourself , you can't escape the reality of something happening .

I've reached a point in life where I feel it's pointless to justify . The need to fight for my rights is no longer essential and to hell with trying to clear misunderstandings . Because if you ask me , it pays to be nice . But when I say pay , the currency I'm referring to exists in the form of tears , hurt and anger .

You called me a bitch , so now , I'll show you one . So if you think what I did was bad , you haven't seen worst yet . Never had I been ashamed about the relationship I had with you , but I guess you feel otherwise . I swear I'll never talk about you , I can even lie and play pretend . No big . Because that would be doing myself a favour .

I've ran out of excuses , and reasons have lost their logic .

Thursday, October 8, 2009 ; 9:04 PM

A Quick Drop-by

The month kicked off with the beginning of my first semester of school , and I hadn't had much rest since . I'm not complaining , in fact , I'm pretty glad I'm busy . It sure beats lazing around at home doing nothing .

I made sure that for the past three weeks my schedule would be super packed . From school , to work , to partying , to shopping , to studying . Just so that I could keep Ray out of my mind . I didn't exactly succeed because it's hard not to miss him especially when I keep talking about him .

Baby , if you're reading this , don't smile to yourself leh .

Anyway , he's been gone for 17 days now . Frankly , the reality of him away in Thailand didn't hit me till Day No. 8 . Maybe I'm too used to him not being around , or maybe the regular phone calls I've been receiving daily from him made things a lot easier .

But before you go thinking that he's one sweet boyfriend , you should probably know it costs only 1 baht a minute . So he calls me 4 to 5 times a day , because (and I quote from the man himself) , "Calling you from Thailand is so much cheaper as compared to Singapore , so must call more lor ."

Cheapo .

But I'm still glad he calls la .

Anyway , my sunburn has started to peel and it looks horrifying . It's so digusting that I get goosebumps everytime I look at my shoulder . It resembles some skin disease or something . Plus I'm freaking dark now . I insisted on using the word "dark" instead of "tanned" because I've gone two tones darker than I would have expected to get out of a tan . I'm never attending any orientation ever again . Never . EVER .

I'm gonna go rest now . Have been sleep-deprived . So bye !

Friday, October 2, 2009 ; 1:26 AM

SOL Beer - Outdoor Beach Experience

Just so we're clear , I am not a beer promoter .

Last month , I was engaged to work for SOL Beer . Along with Lurvies , Dawn and Sharky . A job together with three of the nicest people I know , definitely not one I'll turn down .

Us !

Our job scope was just to have fun , and at the same time , bringing the awareness of SOL Beer to the patrons of cafes and bars . We met really interesting people there , nice and the occasional weird ones . But nevertheless , I enjoyed working with all three of them very much and if only there weren't any internal management issues , I would have loved to continue for a couple of weeks more .

This was one of the few events I really looked forward to working in . There was no checking of the time or frowning at the discomfort of the job scope . Everything was fun . From Sharky's jokes , to Lurvies's approaching methods , to Ben's MC-ing , to the crazy games , to basically everything . Okay , maybe not so much about the outfit . I wasn't really crazy about it . I felt that it was tad too revealing . Then again , it's an outdoor beach experience so I guess bikini is relevant and not really that bad .

We roved from The Vista Bistro (East Coast) , to Cabanna (East Coast) , to Bark's Cafe (Changi) , to Beach Culture (Pasir Ris) . I'm super proud of ourselves that we managed to sell every single bottle of SOL Beer brought to Vista Bistro , as well as doing a great job over at Bark's Cafe and Beach Culture .

That's it . All photos were taken in Beach Culture . There are still SOL events happening but I'm not sure when and where . I bumped into the new hunk and babes over at The Chevrons House last week . So if you wanna catch them , you can go find out yourself because I have no idea . But I don't think they rove the same place twice . I think .

By the way , if you didn't noticed , I'm in every single one of the photos posted above . I felt a need to tell because in one of the photos , I could see how long my hair was . Which made me uber disappointed and pissed off with myself for being so restless and bored at home till I made an unneccessary trip down to the hairdresser to have my long hair snipped off all the way to my shoulder . And this is called kay ba lan .